Memento Mori

Remember that you will die…too...

As every good things came to an end, the life in a relationship may also cross that path. No it's nothing that I could foresee, but I should have avoided the lack of communication. In a couples life things aren't always easy, as it's two different people, with different problems, backgrounds and moods that try to cohabit in a place called their own.

In this particular case, we were together 24/7, as she also worked with me, making our time management really hard, but hey, that's not really the point. The point is that I give up but not from my love for her, but for the believe that things will get better. They won't, and last night was my latest proof as we spend four hours shouting, screaming and crying each other, so yeah, the details do not matter, the beliefs do.

It's clear to me that our time, even though we had more good moments that bad ones, had come. The end isn't near, the end's upon us, but it isn't the end of us individually, oh no, that's probably just the beginnings, it's only the end of our era together ii this form.

It still hurts inside, hell yeah, today, I feel my chest wanting to explode and implode at the same time, every now and them I feel like needles perforating my heart and lungs, but I do not care, i'm a survivor, and I know that eventually I will be turn just fine. Well, it may not be today or in the intrinsic future, but eventually I will.

Yesterday I put all my efforts of reconciliation to terms, I hopped that we could grown old forever, together in electric dreams, but life isn't like and old movie that makes me cry, oh no, live isn't like a movie at all, and yet, it make you cry, it make you have fits of rage, it make sad but it also make you smile, it make you fall in love and worse, it makes you love.

So yeah Imzadi, I've no regrets in us, in you… And even though this relationship died, my dreams remain, as without dreams I am nothing. I am a writer, I aspire for more, I dreamed a dream in time gone by, when hopes were high and life worth living, I dreamed that love would never die and I dreamed that God would be forgiving. But he wasn't and he even tried to tear my hope apart, and to turn my dream to shame.

With no avail, I refuse to give away my dreams, and as good old Charles Francis Xavier once said (yes I'm a geek, so what!!!), a Dream worth having, is a Dream worth fighting for. And that is what I do, that moto is part of me since the day that I read that sentence for the first time. I don't give up my dreams, i might be afraid of the future, but I'm not afraid on believing in my dreams.

So yeah, now I enter my final hours in your life, to be able to once again get the grip in my life, and as for you… go Imzadi, fly, take your path to where you belong, I will interfer no more in your life. Our relation may had ended, but my love for you will not, nor my dream of us. But that, is just that Imzadi, is just a dream that may came to fruition once more, or not...

Who wants to separate

The world we know from our beliefs

And who sees only black and white

Distinguish loss from sacrifice

Some day we may come to peace

With the world within ourselves

And I will await you

Until I close my eyes

Close my eyes

Close my eyes

When your time has come

You know you'll be lonely once again

And the final winter comes to us all

Life is treacherous

But you're not the only who must pretend

We're a second in time

We're the last in the line

Of the prey that walks the earth

Good and evil combined

I am the god in my own history

The master of the game

I may believe if she would come to me

And whisper out my name

Sometimes I wonder where the wind has gone

If life has ever been

Sometimes I wonder how belief alone

Can cut me free from sin

When you close your eyes

Mementos of summer retrieves your mind

Like a drizzled afternoon cleans the air

When the winter blows

You're glad you remember you really tried

And it comes to an end

Even winter... life fall

And we all have our beliefs

Pray for mercy for all

I am a man without a mystery

The deal is done within

I will embrace the coldest winter breeze

And pay for every sin

[Helena]

VICTORIA, NON PRAEDA

MEMENTO MORI

[Mephisto]

UNA VOCE... VOLO, NON VALEO

DULCE ET DECORUM EST

PRO PATRIA MORI

MEMENTO MORI

[Ariel]

So subservant in your embrace

No more denial

No run away

This is the final

My last recall

And that's the price for what we learn

The more we know the more we yearn

Cause we're so alone

I am a man without a mystery

The deal is done within

I will embrace the coldest winter breeze

The journey can begin

I'm still the god in my own history

I still believe that she will come to me

And whisper out my name

Some day we may come to peace

And reach beyond behind the lies

And I will await you

Until I close my eyes

Close my eyes,

Close my eyes...

Ariel...

Ariel...

Ariel...