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And even after I told that I would not post more shouts, is bigger than me, I'm tired, i'm sleepy cause over the entire weekend I slept for about 5 hours, so right now everything is hitching, everything is a small wick ready to blow... Cause in the end this entire crap doesn't really matter, I'm really done with this fucking life... I really tried to stay as a friend, but even that is fading every fucking day... Even as you say you're sorry, you want that too, your actions show the extreme opposite, even if your words say my place is still in your chest, your heart, your soul and even your fucking eyes show me the opposite. There's too much bad blood right now, too much sorrow, pain and misery. Too much hunger, too much rage, and yeah even hate... To the point that I need to do my fucking medication during the day, yes I'm with trouble breathing, but don't worry about me, i'll be fine, and even if i don't it's not your problem anymore. I'm heading to the red line today... so please know that for now no more words will came from me over you, via this blog, via message, via e-mail and even via my voice... I'm really giving up for now, it's not worth it, it's not worth the trouble, it's not worth the sleepless nights, it's not worth having to overdose my fucking medication in order to breathe normally just for you to know that I'm fine when I'm not, it's not worth the tears. Hey, i know your feelings are long gone, probably they were ever as you keep they they were, but what our lasts fights showed was that you never had the perception of what i've done in order to be with you, how I changed in order to be with you, indeed you can see through me, but you never appreciated all the small things that for me where big things, but that's okay, they don't matter anymore, nothing more matters, so please keep going with your life, i really hope you could find the happiness you seek, that one that has already gave you so much signs... or another, after all your newfound friends can help you to achieve that… So what are you waiting for? I really hope it's not me, 'cause I'm really sorry, but  the days I felt safe, I felt that i belonged as a husband and as a friend to you, to that place are long gone, with all the craps, now it's finally the time where I disappear...

Hey, hey, hey

Here I go now, here I go into new days

Here I go now, here I go into new days

I'm pain, I'm hope, I'm suffer

hey, hey, heeee-heeeey

Here I go into new days

Hey, hey, hey

Ain't no mercy, ain't no mercy there for me

Ain't no mercy, ain't no mercy there for me

I'm pain, I'm hope, I'm suffer

Yeah, hey, heeee-heeeey

Ain't no mercy, ain't no mercy there for me

Do you bury me when I'm gone?

Do you teach me while I'm here?

Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disappear

Hey, hey, hey

And i went, and i went, on down that road

Hey, hey, hey

And i went on, then I went on down that road

I'm pain, I'm hope, I'm suffer

Hey, hey, heeeeee-heeeeey

And i went on, then I went on down that road

Do you bury me when I'm gone?

Do you teach me while I'm here?

Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disappear

Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disappear

I'm gone! I'm gone! I'm gone baby!

Do you bury me when I'm gone?

Do you teach me while I'm here?

Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disappear

Just as soon as I belong, then it's time I disappear

Oh, disappear