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Being not in the mood for me means that today I do not give a shit for anything else but me, even that is a matter of discussion, so I decided to review old posts and I really, really found out some interesting stuff/musics regarding me, myself or situations I've been before.

One of those was posted 7 years ago at 4/21/2007, but the feeling is still the same today:

Aquele era o tempo

Em que as mãos se fechavam

E nas noites brilhantes as palavras voavam,

Eu via que o céu me nascia dos dedos

E a Ursa Maior eram ferros acesos.

Marinheiros perdidos em portos distantes,

Em bares escondidos,

Em sonhos gigantes.

E a cidade vazia,

Da cor do asfalto,

E alguém me pedia que cantasse mais alto.

Quem me leva os meus fantasmas,

Quem me salva desta espada,

Quem me diz onde é a estrada?

Aquele era o tempo

Em que as sombras se abriam,

Em que homens negavam

O que outros erguiam.

E eu bebia da vida em goles pequenos,

Tropeçava no riso, abraçava venenos.

De costas voltadas não se vê o futuro

Nem o rumo da bala

Nem a falha no muro.

E alguém me gritava

Com voz de profeta

Que o caminho se faz

Entre o alvo e a seta.

Quem leva os meus fantasmas,

Quem me salva desta espada,

Quem me diz onde é a estrada?

De que serve ter o mapa

Se o fim está traçado,

De que serve a terra à vista

Se o barco está parado,

De que serve ter a chave

Se a porta está aberta,

De que servem as palavras

Se a casa está deserta?

Quem me leva os meus fantasmas,

Quem me salva desta espada,

Quem me diz onde é a estrada?

I really don't know where's my path, but for now I just do not care. For now I walk alone, but I'm not lost anymore Imzadi, so please, do not worry about me, just fix your head and your life. As for me I'll be there one of this days, and I really believe that it will be sooner than later, but as i told you I just don't care, and using a song that meant a lot to Katija, but overtime and in this time I finaly in piece with this song, and hey, it fits into my current mood, so yeah Imzadi, don't be scared, as I'm not lost, just undiscovered...

I look at you, you bite your tongue

You don't know why or where I'm coming from

But in my head I'm close to you

We're in the rain still searching for the sun

You think that I want to run and hide

That I keep it all locked up inside but I just want you to find me

I'm not lost; not lost, just undiscovered

And when we're alone we are all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face

You might think I'm out of place

I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

Well the time it takes to know someone

It all can change before you know it's gone

So close your eyes feel the way I'm with you now

Believe there's nothing wrong

You think that I wanna run and hide

I'll keep it all locked up inside

But I just want you to find me

I'm not lost, I'm not lost, just undiscovered

And when we're alone we're all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face

You might think I'm out of place

I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not running

I'm not hiding

If you dig a little deeper you will find me

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered

And when we're alone we're all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place

I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

I'm not lost, not lost, just undiscovered

And when we're alone we're all the same as each other

You see the look that's on my face, you might think that I'm out of place

I'm not lost, no, no, just undiscovered

And that's it, i'm not lost, just really undiscovered, and as the music says If you dig a little deeper you will find me, cause now I'm not running and I'm not hiding, not anymore, I'm back, full powered and ready for rock and roll, or not at this point, or at least not today, as I'm tired like hell, as my stupid nightmares awake me every fucking day at three or four in the morning, and manage me to lose my sleep until I fade again one or two hours after that abrupt awake. Plus the fact that I need to get our the bed at 8 am don't help too... So yeah today I give all my kingdom for a bed, a couch or even a puff, anyone really, I don't care, I just need to rest... and sleep... But hey, i'm cool with the fact that in life we don't get what we want, we get what we need, so maybe, just maybe I need this, I do not know why, but if some higher power thinks that's the best for me, who am I to disagree.

Anyway this thing of posting multiple posts in one day has a lot to say 'bout my mood today, so, this is the last for now... I hope and believe, cause i really need to finish the second part of "Shadows of the Day Ragnarok Rises..." fiction, but I don't believe that I'll be able to do that today, 'cause...

The wonder of the world is gone and old for sure

All the wonder that I would have found in her

As a hole becomes another strike to burn

An old flame returns

Every intuition fails to find it's way

One more table turned around I'm back again

Finding I'm a lost and found when she's not around

When she's not around

I feel it coming down

Give me what I could never ask for

Connect me and you could be

My chemical now

Give me the drug you know I'm after

Connect me and you could be my chemical

When everybody wants you (the chemical of your soul)

When everybody wants you (the chemical of your soul)

Slow and

Everybody wants you

So slow and

Everybody wants your soul

Give me what I could never ask for

Connect me and you could be

My chemical now

Give me the drug you know I'm after

Connect me and you could be the chemical

You could be the chemical

You could be the chemical

You could be the chemical

The End for now... And remember that i'm not asking, nor demanding, as that is up to you to give me what I could never ask for, connect me and you could be my chemical now. Come, give me the drug you know I'm after, connect me and you could be the chemical... 'Cause you know that I'm never gonna ask you for that... You know that, I'm not like that...