Estou a ser consumido por mil e uma situações a um ritmo mais alucinante do que aquele que tenho estado a consumir tabaco nos últimos dias, bem, pelo menos já não bebo como bebia antigamente, o que é uma melhora substancial.
Hoje acordei com aquela impressão marada que o dia ia ser uma grande merda, e bingo, aconteceu tal e qual como o senti. O que me vale é que hoje consegui dormir… De manha no radio da minha cabeça passava uma musica que não ouvia há alguns anitos..
"I've been biding my time, been so subtly kind, I got to think so selfishly, 'cos you're the face inside of me.
I've been biding my days, you see evidently it pays, I've been a friend, with unbiased views, then secretly lust after you.
So now, he's gone rusty you're bored and bemused.
You wanna do someone else, so you should be by yourself, instead of here with me, secretly.
Trying hard to think pure, bloody hard when i'm raw, you talking out so sexually, 'bout boys 'n girls and your friggin' dreams.
So now you feel lusty, you're hot and confused, so now you've been busted, you're caught feeling used.
You had to do someone else, you should've been by yourself, instead of here with me,
Secretly…"
A ironia desta musica enoja-me por ser tão verdade…Se bem que antes esta do que a que estava a passar na minha cabeça ontem a noite quando me deitei…
"Don't think I can't feel that there's something wrong, you've been the sweetest part of my life for so long. I look in your eyes, there's a distant light and you and I know there'll be a storm tonight. This is getting serious, are you thinking 'bout you or us...
Don't say what you're about to say, look back before you leave my life. Be sure before you close that door, before you roll those dice, baby think twice...
Baby think twice for the sake of our love, for the memory, for the fire and the faith that was you and me. Baby I know it ain't easy when your soul cries out for a higher ground, 'Coz when you're halfway up, you're always halfway down.
But baby this is serious, are you thinking 'bout you or us… Baby this is serious (this is serious), are you thinking 'bout you or us, Baby…"
Enfim, I'm too messed up para não dizer, fuckedup… Mas acredito que tudo melhore muito rapidamente, a pesar de cortar as amarras ser sempre muito complicado para mim…
"She packed my bags last night pre-flight, zero hour nine a.m. And I'm gonna be high as a kite by then. I miss the earth so much I miss my wife, it's lonely out in space on such a timeless flight.
And I think it's gonna be a long long time 'till touch down brings me round again to find I'm not the man they think I am at home. Oh no no no I'm a rocket man, rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone.
Mars ain't the kind of place to raise your kids. In fact it's cold as hell, and there's no one there to raise them if you did. And all this science I don't understand it's just my job five days a week, a rocket man, a rocket man.
And I think it's gonna be a long long time 'till touch down brings me round again to find I'm not the man they think I am at home. Oh no no no I'm a rocket man, rocket man burning out his fuse up here alone.
And I think it's gonna be a long long time…"
Esta musica deprimi-me a milhas, é demasiado eu… Damn You Californitation (the TV show) for reintroduce me to it… Really…
De resto, em processo de mudança, consumido pelo tempo e a memoria. Consumido pela ausência, pela cama vazia, pela alma despida, Confuso, livre, preso, enfim… alive out of habit...
In you I see further.
Can it last forever?
Identify your patients, XY configurations
Words are lost in your eyes.
One thought inside my heart.
Drop addicts in the mixture, falcons have blown the fixture
Think of me as days pass us by.
Shards of glass
Skin of gold
Steal my breath
Blood runs cold
Violet waves
Oceans blue
All my love
Lost in you
In you I see further.
Can it last forever?
Sinkhole that we would frequent,
White heels safe from extinction
Words are lost in your eyes.
One thought inside my heart.
I said that I don't need you, but I'm a liar, I swear I do, I do
Strip away
Vanity
I do
Just as you
Consume me
I do
Broken smile
Starless sky
I do
Save it all
Say goodbye
You're out in left field, and lacking interest
You fight the boredom it makes no difference
Your mental health kid, that's what's in question
Keep acting obscure, we'll keep them guessing
The moment ideas are conceived,
They'll be out of touch, obsolete,
They're faking champions hand picked,
And all the fights have been fixed,
You wake to suffer through the day,
Trade a dream for the pay,
Well here's the fact I hope it sticks,
You're just alive out of habit
Alive out of habit
Alive out of habit
Shards of glass
Skin of gold
Steal my breath
Blood runs cold
Violet waves
Oceans blue
All my love
Lost in you
Strip away
Vanity
Just as you consume me
Broken smile
Starless sky
Save it all
Say goodbye
Think of
Me as
I say
Goodbye
Strip away
Part of me
Just as you consume me
Broken smile
Starless sky
End it all
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